Break ups.

So my boyfriend of almost three years has just broken up with me. I know some can say you will get back together or maybe it wasn’t meant to be. I see where those people are coming from. The place I’m coming from is where I was happy. I had an amazing boyfriend, great family, some truly loyal friends, and my life was getting back on track. Then I pushed the person I love most away and now I have to pay for that. I do love Archie and I will miss him, maybe I was never meant to have him I’ll never know. What I do know is that I have to keep moving forward. I will live my life with or without him. I’m no longer the victim, I’m no longer alone, I an me and that’s all I need. Archie is the best thing that has happened to me and I messed up a lot but he still loved me. Now we have grown..apart I guess. He asked me if I can honestly say I love myself, my answer was yes. I do love myself so I’m not going to beat myself up. I love him more than I love myself yes, but sometimes you need to put yourself first and I finally am. I will miss him dearly and yes I want him back but I don’t think that are in my cards tonight, but you never know what tomorrow brings. Who know I might get my knight in tin foil back, I may not. That is up to us and yea I said knight in tin foil and not in shining armor. That is because he doesn’t need shining armor for me to love him he would dress in tin foil to show me he was my knight, which he is. Maybe one day he will realize I was the one..maybe not. But until then this chick is single and I may not be okay with it but, I will survive.

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Vet appointment.

So I took my amazing, yet lazy lizard Godzilla to the vet. I was really nervous I know he’s a new pet and along he’s part of the family now and I don’t want to see anything g happen to him. So back to the vet visit, they listened to his little lungs and heart and checked the color of the inside of his mouth. The verdict is…he’s healthy! I was so relieved to hear that and they gave me this special food to feed him for now. Which it kind of looks really gross, and the smell is like apple and banana baby throw up. Which if you have little kids or have watches them, it isn’t pleasant. There is one thing though he loves, so what can I do I have to give it to him. so the visit was an overall success but I did find out that all the crickets in his cage are not suppose to be there. Petco gave me twelve small crickets and the worker said just put them in the cage and he will eat them. Well that is so wrong, the crickets could actually start to eat him! ALIVE!!! I was so mad when the vet told me that. So after I got him home and back into his warm familiar home known as my room, I went cricket hunting. Yeah that’s right cricket hunting not rabbit, duck, deer, squirrel, or whatever you hunt I had to catch eleven baby crickets that were mighty fast and sneaky. They hide everywhere! Under the tree in the leaves under the water and good bowl. So for anyone that has to catch baby crickets in a cage good luck! Your gonna need it, they are smart little bugs! Okay so I just wanted to post and let whoever is following me Godzilla is fine and really healthy! And the vet calls him Rango because he looks like the Johnny Depp talking lizard, so maybe I names him not so much towards his looks, but hey when he grows up he could be one fierce looking mountain horned lizard. 🙂